Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Reasons Why

* He offers me his hand when I step into the shower
* He never fails to do the look back
* He holds my hand when we eat dinner
* He envelops me in his arms when we pray
* He opens the car door, every time
* He searches for me in the morning
* Lets me pick the movies
* Lets me lick the bowl after making brownies
*Sings to me

*Reasons why I love Firefly

Face Unafraid

He held me at arms distance, while looking into my eyes he said it. He said exactly when he wanted to get married. He spoke of the plans that he's made and how by the years end we'll be married. The kids all tucked together into our new family of seven. If I'm completely honest it stressed me out. Completely. I thought it was too soon! How can we combine families in such a short amount of time and then I remembered, it's firefly. My firefly. We have all the time in the world to make this happen and I love that he wants it to happen by years end. I was listening to one of my favorite Christmas songs and the lyric, "Face unafraid the plans that we've made" and that's how Firefly makes me feel. I'm not scared of the future, I'm not scared of the plans we've made to combine families and to make an honest women out of me. A Christmas wedding would be magical! 
I love where this is going and even with our small bumps and miscommunication I know he is the man that I want to spend eternity with.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Engagement Pics

How I want my engagement pics

Walt Whitman

"Deathless attachment to freedom"
My summer reading is slow to form but I've found myself entranced by the pages of Walt Whitman and his Leaves of Grass. He's an aggressive poet, energetic and vigorous. It caught me by surprise, I've never liked the man for personal reasons but I've found his poetry very intriguing. I am always surprised that I haven't stumbled across these literature giants before now, how have I gone 32 years on this earth and call myself an American without reading Whitman?

It's almost good poetry, every other line is bold and strikes a cord but followed by a weak, unconnected ramble. So you have to slice out what you like and what you dont and I dont feel like the poem looses any integrity.

"What is a man anyhow? What am I? and what are you?
All I mark as my own you shall offset it with your own,
Else it were time lost listening to me"

"I  do not trouble my spirit to vindicate itself or be understood, I see that Elementary laws never apologize...I exist as I am, that is enough"

Friday, June 9, 2017

Firefly and cotton candy

This man has taught me more about love and laughter then any other person in my life. He's my perfection.